I was really tired this morning, lacking any energy. I napped at 11:00, before having a shower. I just couldn't get moving. I have had a hard time, the past couple of days...feeling unneeded. I feel completely separated from my household. I don't know what's going on half the time and almost feel as if they have moved on without me. It's really hard to see your whole world go on without you in it. I wanted to just cry and cry it all out last night but every time I started to cry, someone came into my room. I haven't had a really good cry since this all started and I felt like I needed it. I, unfortunately, took some of my frustration out on Todd when he arrived with the kids today. Then I was crying in front of the kids, while I was yelling at Todd. Never a good thing.
After my mini-breakdown, I tried to enjoy my visit with the kids. I can't say I am feeling very upbeat at this moment, but at least I am not sobbing! I am going to try and relax, read my book and maybe watch a little tv.
I am grateful to God for another day, pregnant, regardless of the circumstances. I trust that all of this is part of His plan and that I will make it through it, one day at a time.
11 months ago