I really want to write something positive here...I think I said I was going to try to be more positive....but I am starting to think that God is punishing me. I now have whatever cold/flu that is going around. Just as I get the pain of my teeth under control this has to happen. I am miserable and so tired of feeling this way. If I could "throw in the towel" or just quit, I would!!!
Now, on a better note...Nathanael is looking so good. He is still having to be tube fed at some point during the day but he is working hard at taking bottles. I can't ask for anything more. My father-in-law and his girlfriend Geneva agreed to take CPR, which is totally awesome. I will feel much more comfortable if something comes up where, in an emergency or something, I need to leave the baby with them. I can't imagine it will happen but I am glad we are prepared.
Well, I took some cold and flu stuff, am gonna pump and dump and go to bed. I hope Nathanael understands why he will have no milk tomorrow :(. Guilty!!!
11 months ago